Who I am, Who I am Not

I'm not a chaser. I'm not a runner. I'll never be yours. I'm never a priority. You'll never be one to me. Who I am? I'm not who you want me to be.  Who am I not? I'm not a disbeliever. Be the one you want me to be. Believe in me. I'll be who I am and no less, no more. It isn't who I'm not that you want. You want me as you want me to be. There never was me. There was never you. There was never us. It's what I want to be that makes no sense. No sense to me. No sense to them. My life is mine. Your heart will never be a part of.... what more do you want me to be if I'm not even who I want to be? It's all just a life of quoted has been, I write this as I wonder Who I am, Who I'm Not. I'm not who I'll be in the end, the middle is not me. This day will end with just me then begin over with me being me. I'm a mix of many gathered into one. I am not to be mistaken, I am only me, you will always just be you. Never for one, never for us, I will be only who I will ever want to be.  Do not understand me, the words or where it goes from here? Be you, I'm me and we'll never be us. 

Self Worth

The more I think about it, the more I truly believe that the amount of faith you have in others equals the amount of self worth you find in yourself.  Then I wonder - if you allow yourself to fall for someone you believe is far better than yourself, in morality and integrity, you won't trust yourself enough to just let it be.

For a Fleeting Moment

"Honestly, I wish you never let go of me when you held me in your arms. It gave me that feeling that maybe you'd be the one to stick around just a little bit longer." ~ Unknown
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She is but her own worst enemy.

Dreams ...

"You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams." - Dr. Seuss

Human nature doesn't always bloom...

First there was bad temperament and unnecessary judgment....next came a lot of indecisiveness, a fair amount of hesitation and an even more amount of false intentions and lies. After that came unsuspected love. A love built on a journey that would never be complete no matter how much she wanted it. Upon the end of love came heartbreak which was fought to the bitter end. Thereafter, again nothing more than skepticism snuck in. It almost drowned her but then along came the child. One that meant well but would never be able to complete her.... and now.... pure apathy.

She is just simply tired of human nature.
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“The problem with people is that they're only human.” ~ Bill Watterson