Did I Ever Tell You How Lucky You Are?

"And suppose that you lived
In that forest in France
Where the average young person
Just hasn't a chance
To escape from the perilous
Pants eating plants!


You oughta be thankful
A whole heaping lot
For the people and places
You're lucky you're not."
~Dr. Seuss, (1973)
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Rather than being sad you are you, sad that life seems so unfair to you, sad that an injustice you've created in your mind has made things a little bumpy, sad that you may not have what others might enjoy and instead of feeling there should be an easier way to survive....instead....for once....be aware enough to realize that in your life you have those surrounding you already that want you in their lives...just as you are and what they see in you......is you.

Sometimes it's...

...never too late to try again.  You just have to find me. 

That's Him . . .

"Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up, who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the boy who kisses you on your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you're in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you. Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, ''...that's her' and smiles..." ~Unknown

The House that Cages Us

"Houses are not haunted. We are haunted, and regardless of the architecture with which we surround ourselves, our ghosts stay with us until we ourselves are ghosts."  ~Velocity, Dean Koontz

There Are Always Reasons

Everything does happen for a reason...

Simple words would have made a world of difference. Silence....as written before....is the worst kind of communication. I was not the one for him.  Fate.

Perfect Imperfection

I was reading through quotes this evening, as I often do, and ran across this one, "Love isn't finding a perfect person. It's seeing an imperfect person perfectly." Quoted by Sam Keen.

For me reading quotes tend to make me look at difficult or mundane situations in another light.  A self-therapy if you will. A way to shed light on sometimes very dark moments in my life. Tonight, when I read this one, something inside me registered differently.  For such an unbelievable simple saying the impact was quite forceful.

After so, so many wrong people .... before I even realized what was happening and days before this quote .... I had begun to notice it the last time we were together, just laughing and sharing an everyday day....there's something else there. Possibly right below the surface, just out of my reach at this moment but ....

Every moment I spend with him, I'm beginning to see something a little different in myself, in him........

It's Time...

...to get lost in photos again. Soon.......reset my default setting. 

Unbearable

I find myself focusing too much on the imbalances.  The uncertainty of the outcome of an unbalanced relationship.  Does it matter that I notice too much, that I fidget when I do and that I bottle the awareness up inside for only as long as I can hold my breath?  I watch, I judge, I make snap decisions on what I feel is right at that exact moment.  When justice would be served better if I simply waited it out.  It will pass.  It always does.  So I wait..... and then waiting makes other imperfections seem like errors.  In reality, imperfections make us human.....yet then again, being human is sometimes all together unbearable.  

Listen to the Secrets

"Maybe, maybe we look for secrets because we can't believe our minds..." ~ Girl Interrupted, 1999

Everyone has them....  It's the person who loves us, despite the worst of all, who you should learn to trust.

Ground Lost

If you notice I'm drifting away..... it's time to read the email.
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"Every day you spend drifting from your goals is a waste not only of that day, but also of the additional day it takes to regain lost ground” ~ Ralph Marston

Clarity

At times it seems with every failure, you become more and more clear to me.  A clarity that will, I'm sure, win out over all the wrong people.  It's just a matter of time . . .in which I'll see past all the blur.

In the Beginning...

...it's always a sunrise.  It's the moments in between that make the day worth ... the sunset. 

The Future to Be

"Friendship" painted for a dear friend

"We will be friends until forever, just you wait and see."  - Winnie the Pooh
Sometimes I wonder what I would do without you. I hope I never have to find out. 

Life Happens

I will be the first to admit I have no patience for those without passion. I have no tolerance for people who are not strong willed. I find it very difficult to understand or empathize with a person who runs and hides from the daily trials of life. Let's face it. Life happens and sometimes it happens with a vengeance. Maybe it's because, although there has been hardship in my life, I simply can't relate. But maybe, it's because I've always faced problems head-on, dealt with them and moved on until again there was a smile on my face. This is the picture I paint in my mind, until...

...I meet a person who just...as simple as it may be...doesn't know how to move past the struggles of everyday challenges. They run, they hide from those who care, they sit and wait it out until it passes them by. They refuse help. They refuse a shoulder to cry on. They refuse borrowed strength. Sure. Physically they move their body to deal with what's going on but emotionally, they run under the first cover they can find and there they sit, they hope, wish and fantasize until the coast is clear. Only then do I fully and completely understand...

...just how strong willed I am. I feel I should thank them for that.

It's a new year. Finally.....my short lived rut is over.

"Sagittarians - Born philosophers, Sagittarians have an affinity for new concepts and possess a deep-seated desire to understand life's mysteries. Whether it's reading a book by Eckhart Tolle, attending a lecture by Deepak Chopra, or taking a world religion course at a local college, your hobby should stimulate this thirst for knowledge."